Amarii just turned one on August 6th – and we started the celebration with a first birthday photo shoot and smash cake session.  This photo session was special because we took it back to the place where we shot my maternity shoot at Amelia Earhart Park back in May 2014.   Once again, I called upon Erica Rodriquez of Mau Loa Photography, who shot Bobbi Elle’s 2nd birthday (Bobbi Elle Goes Rocker Chic for Two!). She also shot my  maternity session with Amarii (My Family Maternity Shoot) and his birth journey (Birthing with Fear…My Birth Journey).  So it was a full circle moment for us both.

I wanted to capture his boyish charm and to show his growth in just 12 months.  I also wanted to steal some shots with his sister and I.  We included a smash cake photo moment with a Mickey Mouse themed oversized cupcake made by Divine Delicacies Custom Cakes.  We displayed those shots at his Mickey Mouse themed birthday party later that week:  AJ’s Clubhouse Birthday Bash.

Below are a few of my favorites from the day:

Amarii's 1st Birthday Shoot

Amarii's 1st Birthday "See the World" Shoot

Amarii's First Birthday Shoot

Amarii's First Birthday Shoot

Amarii's First Birthday Shoot

Amarii's First Birthday Shoot

Amarii's First Birthday Shoot

Amarii's First Birthday Shoot


Last year, I spent nine months carrying a baby not wanting to know the sex.  I was nervous about what I was having but also wanted to be surprised.  Part of me didn’t want to have a boy – I was scared of boys…didn’t feel I was a “boy’s mom” and that I would do much better with another girl.  Also, Bobbi Elle would have a playmate, a sister and a friend for life.  Kind of like my sister and I.  I also didn’t know if I would have room in my heart to love another child – it felt like Bobbi had all of me.

Boy was I wrong (no pun intended!),  Amarii Joseph came and rocked my world.  I wrote about our birth journey and shared personal moments from the delivery room in my blog Birthing With Fear…My Birth Journey.  And since his grand entrance – life has never been the same.  Some day I’ll share my thoughts on juggling life with a toddler and an infant…but for now – I just wanted to share a snipet of my life, my AJ.  Words can’t express the depth that my heart has opened to love a second child.  Nor can it explain the joy I feel to be blessed with a son.  It is an incredible feeling to know that I get a chance to raise a man…and its something I so look forward to.

Bobbi – well she’s still adjusting…but the one thing I know for sure – she absolutely loves her little bro…as long as he doesn’t have any of her toys or getting all of the attention.

The last few days has been a little emotional for me – just going thru old footage and seeing his delivery and moments after his birth.  I’m sad that he’s no longer a newborn…a baby.  He’s starting to take a few steps and I know it’s just a matter of time before I completely lose him to his newfound freedom. But I’m so looking forward to what’s to come.

Thanks to my husband and Edward from Elite Media Concepts for once again putting together an amazing video.  They knew how much I loved the one done for Bobbi that I posted for her first birthday Bobbi Elle – The First Year.  And a special thank you to all of my amazing family and friends that have walked this journey with me.




This past year has gone by way too fast…
It seems like yesterday that I was plugged up to machines and IV’s (sneaking M+M’s in my mouth)…counting down the moments that I would welcome our little girl into the world.  When they told me I was 9 centimeters – I burst into tears because I knew it was just a matter of time.  And I was scared.  Life would never be the same – and there was no going back.  That Monday, Feb 11, 2013 at 5:28PM – my life changed forever.  For so long, I struggled with what my purpose was on earth – and over the course of this year – it was revealed to me…and that was to become a MOM.  I was so scared and nervous of what it meant to become a MOM…the responsibilities, the decisions, no days off…and now I can’t imagine my life any different.  Even tho I always knew I wanted children, it was never something I daydreamed of – or put on my vision board.  But God had his own vision for me and I am so grateful that he chose ME to shepard the life of a little angel named Bobbi Elle Margaret Metelus. Life has new meaning for me and for that, I am eternally grateful.